Not much going on here. I have a lot of anxiety right now, so every day is a roller coaster of emotions. I'm trying to tone it down, but I'm getting to the point where I would really like to go home. * sigh *

I'm able to walk again! Yay! I'm still getting worn out kind of easily, but I'm able to make it like 4000 steps rather than 1000. So, progress is made. I've been a little more anxious recently about the prospect of moving, because immigration requires lots of paperwork and is stressful. Joel points out that I've already beaten that game on hard ( Read more... )

Ugh. I'm feeling emotionally unstable at the moment, which I hate. I suspect this is because of dieting combined with plans for moving. Since we don't actually need to leave right now and since we can't predict when we will need to leave or what immigration laws will be like when we do leave, I'm trying to spend less time fussing about where we ( Read more... )

Things continue to move forward here. Programming goes well. I've used some of my new libraries in code, and they are working correctly. Yay! Of course, there have been a lot of changes and a bunch of debugging, but so far, so good. I'm really looking forward to using the libraries to update existing sites. That is a little way down the list, ( Read more... )

Joel was away for a couple of days, which means has kind of gotten me off balance. So, I'm not doing quite as well as I could possibly be doing. However, I'm okay. I think I'm also a bit freaked out because we have a bunch of stuff coming up. It will be okay, though. Oh, and speaking of okay, I made it through another appointment with a doctor and ( Read more... )

In a game that I play, you collect rumors, patterns, and hard facts. You can also come up with plans, so when you need one, you just say, "I already have a plan." I'm kind of in that situation, as I know that we are going to eventually be in a situation where we will have to come up with how we are going to organize our time when in the US. I've ( Read more... )

I've been up and down for the last few days. Two days ago was mostly good. Yesterday was bad. Today was mostly good, although I ceased to function about 20 minutes ago. That's fine, though. Joel helped me with dinner, so I can eat and then go to bed. I'm assuming this is fallout from me forgetting to take vitamins one day (I took about half of what ( Read more... )

Well, I'm still not stable. I was starting to do better, but then on Saturday, I couldn't sleep. I ended up going to sleep at like 5:45am and sleeping until about 8:45am or so. For someone who is usually in bed for about 12 hours and unconscious for 9-10 of those hours, this was clearly not enough sleep. I'm recovering, but I don't feel great, and ( Read more... )

Ugh. Will this bullshit mood instability never end? (Spoiler alert: it won't.) I continue to be unstable and fussy, unable to focus, unwilling to do nearly anything. I'm having trouble talking again, so my psychologist wants me to get an MRI when the pandemic is over. (There was a big fancy hospital I was thinking of checking out to see if their ( Read more... )

I am finally starting to feel better. The answer seems to only have been vitamin C and not vitamin D at all. So, don't change brands of vitamins. Ever. Anyway, I'm doing okay and looking forward to doing better than okay at some point. I really look forward to my usual brand of vitamin C being back in stock, ordering it, and then waiting a month ( Read more... )